2003-05-21 - 11:33 a.m. - Cycle day: 25 weeks, 3 days

First off, congratulations to Junegirl! One more hip mama-to-be! Woo hoo!

Not a whole lot going on around here these days. It just hit me that I'm about to slide into the third trimester, and that's a little ... terrifying. The last dozen weeks have gone much faster than the first dozen. I suddenly feel like there's so much we need to do and not enough time to get it done. And then it also feels like time is standing still. I emailed a childbirth educator about scheduling classes, and she said her next course will finish up during my 35th week. My 35th week! How can I ever possibly be 35 weeks?! It's completely surreal. The very fact that I have a baby inside me is still not quite fully integrated into my consciousness, even when I can feel it rolling around and kicking and stretching. The Husband and I keep looking at each other and saying "What do we do?" We want this child desperately, but the reality of being parents is impossible to imagine ahead of time.

So we keep ourselves preoccupied with to-do lists. Such as: refinance the house, take childbirth classes, tour hospitals, re-roof, change our insurance policies, write wills, and on and on and on. I just started a pre-natal yoga class, so that's been keeping me baby-focused yet busy at the same time. All but one of the participants are first-time moms, and I'm the pregnantest one. (I'll have to keep reminding myself of that when I feel like I can't do or hold positions that everyone else is managing just fine.) I've also been writing for a local parenting zine. I haven't published anything in a while, and it's nice to feel like I have something to share again.

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