2005-01-21 - 12:12 a.m. - Cycle day:

I wrote a lovely, long-winded summary of M's second Christmas, but my computer (acutally, a friend's laptop) froze up on me just when I hit "done!" Probably for the best, though - now all I can remember is how much fun she had tearing through all her new stuff, and I've nearly forgotten the 2 states and 7 bed changes we endured to celebrate 3 Christmases. Oh, and the teething - all four molars came down just in time for our non-direct flight home. But we all survived, and all the grandparents were thrilled to spend the time with M, so all in all it was a worthwhile adventure. This year, anyway. Once she gets old enough to require her own plane seat, it might tip the scales toward staying at home.

In other news, I got my first post-partum period. Not that anyone is all that interested, but I want to write it down so I won't forget - it started last Tuesday, so I guess that was Jan. 11. It was a total surprise, although looking back, I should have detected a significant upswing in my moodiness. It was strangely short, too. It used to drag on for at least a week, but this time, it was over in four days. I don't know if that indicates a more normal cycle or not. It did sort of seem like I'd been having ovulatory symptoms in late December, but that could have just been Christmas cookie-induced stomach pain.

Moving on ... well, things just keep going, don't they? M. not only dances, but she now has moves. We can say "booty shake" and she'll put one hand on the floor and wiggle her butt. She waves and says good-bye (I know a lot of kids do this earlier, but it's still exciting). She follows directions and obviously understands a lot of what we say. I wish we understood her a little better, because she's very talkative. She's in a nurse-a-holic stage right now, which seems to happen when she's teething. I almost forget that she eats solids, and then one day she'll start feeling better and suddenly scarf everything in front of her. In the meantime, we're up several times a night. Again.

I feel bad having left that last entry up for so long, because it was so forlorn, but it was an accurate reflection of how I was feeling. Things are still bumpy between The Husband and me, but we're at least starting to talk more about it. We haven't hashed out all the issues, but the fact that we have issues is no longer a mystery, so I guess that's a good first step. Adding to our usual allotment of stress is the sudden possibility that I may become a business owner. A friend has recently determined that she can't keep her alternative parenting store open on her own, and without anyone taking it over, the doors would close at the end of this month. I've pretty much lived at this store for the last year, and it quite literally saved my new-mama sanity, so I feel quite passionately that it needs to stay open. And since I also feel that 1) I need to make some money and 2) I need a job that allows M. to be with me, this seems like the perfect fit. We're still trying to figure out the logisitics, though, and I have to admit that part of me is pretty panicked about the whole idea, but I think we can make it work. I hope so, for my sake and for this community.

previous - next